[Suzan]

Lisa,
Sorry to hear you are having a rough time of it. We all go through it from time to time. My husband and I care for three autistic boys (11, 15, 19), they live in our home (like foster care). I am the primary caregiver, but my husband is here for support when I need him. I am sure it is much harder for you, as hubby is the one you are caring for. I also find health care issues more stessful than the behavioral challenges I deal with.
My mother lives about 5 hours from me, but about once a month, we meet in a town half-way between. We always have brunch at Cracker Barrel and then go hang in the mall for the whole day. We shop, sit and chat, and always visit the Disney Store! My parents are going with us in June on our land and sea vacation, so we make plans and buy clothes for the trip. We finish the day with dinner in a nice restraunt and I make sure I never get home before the boys are in bed for the night. I always feel like I have had a mini-vacation.
Is there anyone who could take your place for a day? Maybe you could spend the day with your daughter or a friend. When I am at the end of my rope, and a real escape is impossible, I try mental escapes, like this board, or a book, or calling a friend.
I have also joined Curves, and I make sure I get to go work out 2 or 3 times a week. I have found the physical activity lowers my stess and I feel like I am doing something just for me.
Hopefully, the worst of the winter weather is past us, and some bright sunny days will cheer us all. I will pray for you and for your husband, and that the vacation in August goes as planned. Hang in there!